Paper diary.
Dec. 11th, 2005 09:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
h_hollisterRight.
This is no good.
I'm not going to flail any more. I'm sitting down and figuring this out right now.
PROS.
He loves me.
I love him.
We're very, very happy together.
He's got a brain in his head.
He's powerful, in more ways than one.
He's gorgeous and the sex is awesome. That doesn't matter, stop that.
He'd protect me.
I'd protect him back.
He makes me laugh.
I make him laugh.
He's understanding. ...To a point. Mostly.
He's been there for me through a lot of bad shit.
When he learns something, he learns the hell out of it.
He's helped me do the same.
He's got a healthy sense of pride.
He's got great taste in music and books.
He's always got donuts for me. Heh.
CONS
Endless questioning.
Zero understanding of monogamy.
He's really pissed at me right now, for good reason, and might not take me back.
The fire thing kinda freaks me out.
He likes to leave.
He still doesn't get along with Dez.
He might turn back into a Decepticon with zero notice.
PROS
I know him really well.
He knows me really well.
It feels comfortable again.
He still wants our old goals.
We have history together.
I still love him. I think.
...
...
Is that all I can come up with...?
Oh boy.
CONS
The fights.
His temper.
MY temper.
The Morris dancing. Argh.
He's got terrible taste in music. God.
His ego knows no bounds.
He's still jealous that I achieved officerhood and he didn't. I think.
He's terse.
He's cowardly.
He's cheap.
He's such a smeghead.
He gives me shit for smoking. ...Well, okay, so does TC.
No idea if he still loves me or what.
He threw a book at me. ...I should get over that.
We were really shitty to each other the last year or so of the relationship and it still hurts.
...
...
What am I doing?
...
...
Why was this even a thought?
I've gotta find T.
((Paper diary entry, please respect the fourth wall thingo.))
This is no good.
I'm not going to flail any more. I'm sitting down and figuring this out right now.
PROS.
He loves me.
I love him.
We're very, very happy together.
He's got a brain in his head.
He's powerful, in more ways than one.
He'd protect me.
I'd protect him back.
He makes me laugh.
I make him laugh.
He's understanding. ...To a point. Mostly.
He's been there for me through a lot of bad shit.
When he learns something, he learns the hell out of it.
He's helped me do the same.
He's got a healthy sense of pride.
He's got great taste in music and books.
He's always got donuts for me. Heh.
CONS
Endless questioning.
Zero understanding of monogamy.
He's really pissed at me right now, for good reason, and might not take me back.
The fire thing kinda freaks me out.
He likes to leave.
He still doesn't get along with Dez.
He might turn back into a Decepticon with zero notice.
PROS
I know him really well.
He knows me really well.
It feels comfortable again.
He still wants our old goals.
We have history together.
I still love him. I think.
...
...
Is that all I can come up with...?
Oh boy.
CONS
The fights.
His temper.
MY temper.
The Morris dancing. Argh.
He's got terrible taste in music. God.
His ego knows no bounds.
He's still jealous that I achieved officerhood and he didn't. I think.
He's terse.
He's cowardly.
He's cheap.
He's such a smeghead.
He gives me shit for smoking. ...Well, okay, so does TC.
No idea if he still loves me or what.
He threw a book at me. ...I should get over that.
We were really shitty to each other the last year or so of the relationship and it still hurts.
...
...
What am I doing?
...
...
Why was this even a thought?
I've gotta find T.
((Paper diary entry, please respect the fourth wall thingo.))
